I CAN'T HIDE

Hey guys, lately I haven't been able to blog regularly. I know I promised I'll be blogging to keep you guys updated but things has been crazy around me and I can't think straight. Sorry about that.

Now, the title of my blog for today is 'I CAN'T HIDE'. Well you guys might not understand it now but surely you'll find out if you're fast enough in understanding things as you read through.

Smiling, but not meaning it. Saying 'i'm ok' but not really. Answering 'yeah' whenever they ask, everything ok? That's me lately.

The only time I can make a real smile is when I'm in church or our home group meetings. My friends has something in them that can really make me smile everytime I see them. They're totally turning my frown to a smile.

Well, I haven't really told anyone about this yet cuz I thought it was fixed long ago but turns out, no. I was trying to fix everything on my own.

I'm not an attention seeking person. That's what I can say. I'm not the kind of person to grab everyone's attention while their attention is elsewhere! Seriously, I'm not like that. I can be annoying, that one I will admit but will never be an attention seeking person, maybe a little bit but not like all the time.

I used to be the kind of person who like to broadcast stuff using facebook or I'll even msg everyone when something happened or I'm angry with someone and follow up with swearing.

So I won't broadcast any names here, but I know you're one of the regular readers of this blog. I would say this, My network of friends is wide. You can't go telling people what I'm not. Stop making stories about me man, so not manly of you. And if you think my REAL friends will turn against me, think again! You may have turned some people against me, but you can't get through me. I won't let it anymore man. I admit, I was down cuz I wasn't expecting it all to come from you.

You caught me off guard but will never happen again. Anyways, who am I to judge. I'm not God. So i'll just forgive and forget. Cuz if I continue being down or hold grudges, it'll just consume me. If God can forgive, I can too. I'll just have to pretend that none of this happened.

Hey guys, I know you keep saying that I've changed. But that doesn't give you the right to blame my church friends. You have no right to judge them cuz they didn't force me to change. It was my own will to change. So don't blame them. Plus if I changed, just accept the fact. There's no need to hate people. Ok? Stop blaming. :)

If you think you dunno me anymore then get to know me again. Seriously, i'm still me. Only some things changed. Not all ok? I'm still me. I just don't swear anymore. So stop making me go back to my old ways when something little happen I will say F... See, I've got my own ways now. Not only through that word ok? So chill, I'm still me.

Remember this, to everyone, THE ONLY CONSTANT THING IS CHANGE.
So can't avoid it.